nottiffanylee

I had a dream that L.A. Reid was a murderer and was coming after me around my town. Is this a foretelling of my music business future?

There is nothing better than laying in bed with my baby Jon sitting next to me playing guitar. Sweetest thing evaaa.

I have a new boyfrann :)

Jon told me he has fallen in love with me..

Woo tax refund! I want to spend it but I know I shouldn't.

Yesterday was a lot of fun. It was like a girls hang out night. Sabrina, Em, Cecily and I went to Noodles & Co., glow bowling at Inmans, lattes/shakes/Candy Land & Uno at Oberweis, dropped off Emily so she could do homework, and then the remaining 3 went to a porn shop and bought glow penises for the Britney Spears show. Hahaha.

I have been planning next semester's classes and next semester is going to be great with saving money on transportation and sleeping in late. I get to take three classes online: Accounting, Writing for Managers, and Managerial Economics. Then, one class that I'm really excited about on the campus, Producing Recorded Music. It's a five hour class that only meets one and a half months and teaches you everything a producer does. It's hands-on and observation in a recording environment that teach you about microphones, recording personnel, planning budgets and logistical issues, producing aesthetics, the union, and then they throw in basic music theory. That one I should have a handle on already.

That means, after October 22nd, I don't even have to go to Chicago for classes until Spring '10 semester.

My design job is going pretty awesome. We uploaded the site to the interwebz today and now we're tweaking it before it's finished. It's really exciting because it has the ability to grow into something huge. If you want to see the very beginning, check out robooto.com.

It's almost 6AM, the birds are chirping and my head is groggy. Goodnight.

PS: "Police: Target employee takes $4,033, blames it on 'little voice'

VALPARAISO | An employee of Target in Valparaiso told police a "little voice" told him "you need gas money," so he stole $4,033 cash and several pieces of merchandise from the store.

Caleb Webb, 20, of Rensselaer, was arrested Wednesday on a felony theft charge after he was accused of stealing $4,033, seven DVD movies and a $60 video game. Police said Webb, who was in charge of collecting cash from the registers at the end of a shift, is accused of taking the money between December 23 and March 30.

Police said he was caught on video taking money. -- By Ken Kosky, The Times"
http://www.post-trib.com/news/porter/1509011,pcops.article
http://www.nwi.com/articles/2009/04/03/news/porter/doc4acf5bd6f83e44178625758d0002c7ea.txt

What a fun morning at work that was. Cops came in the store and escorted him out in cuffs. I don't think I did much work that day.

I never really enjoyed this song that much, but have definitely grown to love it.



"When the cloud over your mind
Finally breaks and rains to remind
You of me covering you
That's when the light comes crashing through

So I'll keep away and save a place for you
And I'll only make the same mistakes as you

When you stop hitting the wall
It's not the plaster that ruined this hall
When all the blood all over your fingers is dried up
The pain will still linger

So I'll keep away and save a place for you
And I'll only make the same mistakes as you

Scream until you smile
But I'm the only one who hears

When you wake up to the sound
Of a thousand voices around
Can you hear the rattle of words
That only takes a heart to be heard"

I've always loved this one, though:


This week has been all over the place. Seeing Katy Perry was so much fun and was definitely not expected. Problems with my relationship had me about lose my mind. So I've been packing them up and shoving them to a hole somewhere. I just don't even want to think about it. Stress with school has been driving me crazy. This spring break was needed so badly. I was getting behind in work with my designing job which also stressed me out a bit. I've been trying to workout as much as I can, and have sort of kept with it. It's hard to stick to when my work schedule is all over the place. My week ended with a concerned message from Butch himself on myspace that seemed to level out everything, for now.

Ugh. I don't know. :(
I feel like I get somewhere and it just gets tossed out the window.

There was a super drunk guy on the train yesterday and it was depressing. He kept calling his parents in Hammond and they both asked if had been drinking.





Give me all your fear, Throw it all away.
and think about the good things, no matter what they say.

The closest friend I ever had growing up and until near the middle of high school is now pregnant. I have outlasted them all and I deserve a party in honor of not being reckless with my v.

It's so crazy because seriously, just about everyone is either pregnant or had a kid. One girl is even on her 3rd. Seriously, wtf.

Wooo weight-lifting! I hurt so good.

As time goes on, I realize I am much more of an independent person than I thought. I do not like to rely on anyone for anything. In fact, I hate it. I'm not a cuddly person. I'm not girly. I'm not the type of person that likes to get close to anyone. I'm very determined at times and I don't like when people around me aren't.

I have so many major goals that I want to accomplish and I feel like my surroundings are only delaying that. I think it's partly that I'm not as motivated as I could be with the stress I have, but I also blame it on things I shouldn't. There are sort of 'enablers' in my life that I need to deal with.

Looking in from the outside, people would look at going to shows to enjoy the band live, go home, new day. To me, it's different. I saw Butch in Grand Rapids last night and it struck me much differently than before. I become motivated and want to do something for me. Butch is just my example, but I'm sure this can be applied to anyone's favorite band.. but, I see what impact he has had on his fans lives. I see how he has such a good time playing music with his friends and is so grateful that people allow him to do that. When you talk to him, he listens. I think beyond the type of music he makes, the type of person he is brings so many people to become fans.

I want that. I want to do it on my own terms and with my own brain.

This probably doesn't make much sense to someone who isn't me, but I needed to say it for some reason.

It's been quite awhile since I updated. On top of being in love with my new MacBook, I've been pretty busy in general. Not to mention pretty sick for almost two weeks that has thrown me for a loop.

Development on the first blog I've been working on has been going smoothly. All though I was getting stuck at the point that it looked so blank because there was no content yet. I've been working with some pre-made templates and developing them for our needs. Pretty fun stuff. I'll post a link to the finished product when it goes live.

Working on this and researching different ad revenue techniques have sparked interest in creating my own blog for a source of income. This, of course, wouldn't be a personal blog because I'm quite boring of a person, haha. So, I've decided on a general topic of things that I am interested in and what many others already search for on the internet. So, with researching some different blogs already live and what they make daily (http://www.websiteoutlook.com) I've come up with an idea of combining everything beauty, fashion, and health-wise like exercise and healthy eating for women into a blog. I'm going to combine it with layout that would also be appealing to those visiting it and hopefully create something huge.

With all this going on and being sick, I've gotten a little behind in school stuff. I'm almost caught up now, with just one assignment being late. After that, I'm hoping to come up with a better schedule for getting things done. I want to get things done much earlier than for example, the day before they are due!

I went ahead and got a wireless mouse for design uses, but I found out a way to right click! Just have two fingers on the finger pad and THEN click! Hah.

On the health front, I am getting into weight lifting rather than killing myself with cardio. I've been looking at how to eat in order to aid muscle building and what exercises are best. For that, I got a heart rate monitor watch, which is pretty cool.